One Bite at a Time


I'm Kate. I used to not eat. I had Anorexia Nervosa and got very sick and hated my life. A few years ago I began a recovery process, which I believe is a lifelong deal. I'm still in the process of healing my mind, body, and spirit, and there are a lot of things that help me do this. Here is a short list!
-Buddhist Mindfulness practice, meditation, Radical Acceptance, praying, the Psalms
-Food. Lots of it. Mostly only the delicious kind.
-Exercise. Lots of it. Mostly only the fun kind. A jezziefriend called it Slayer Training, which I joyfully stole. If you don't know what this means, don't worry. If you do, I love you.
-Therapy (still. I think it might never end.)
-Having good friends and family, both IRL and on the wonderwebs (*trademark, my brother.)
-12 Step recovery principles (but I am not a Big Book Thumper, so please don't be afraid.)

This will be a place for me to dump copious amounts of recipes (the good and the bad), talk about spirituality and what I learn in my weekly sitting group, repost inspiring and awesome quotes and stories, and share ridiculous and/or obscene pictures, gifs, and assorted other whatnots. That's how I roll. I hope you will enjoy.

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To the former client who sent me the anon messages this morning:

You made me cry. I’m so glad that things are going well for you and I wish you so much love and happiness. You deserve it.

Congratulations on your video and especially on getting into grad school! You’re going to be an amazing therapist. You have the tools to help so many people, and I know you will. Just remember to keep helping yourself first and foremost. Sending you the biggest hugs from Nashville.

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Two Things:

This morning I saw my super-serious ex-boyfriend crossing the street near where we both work. I haven’t seen him in years, and I’m always waiting to bump into him. I’m pretty sure he saw me, but I put on my sunglasses, had about six heart attacks, and drove away quickly. Mature!

My favorite little 5 year old patient told me the silliest story about a butterfly flying into a bee’s butt and it made everything better. I recorded it on my phone, but I can’t figure out how to upload it here so you’ll just have to imagine it. He has a lisp and he wears glasses. Amazing.

Tagged: workmy ex was wearing an outfit I am 99.8% sure was at least 5 years old when we were datingwhich makes it 10 years old nowwhich means he's pretty much the same as always

Awesome.

Not only is my favorite other therapist at work leaving next month, we just found out that they aren’t filling her position. And our intern is leaving.

I’m sure you can’t begin to guess what that means.

Tagged: worka whole shitload of extra workfor me

She’s home!

The police just found her. No details yet but it’s looking like she’s unharmed. Thank you everyone for your prayers and good thoughts.

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My heart.

My heart.

Tagged: workthis is from one of my anorexic girlswe ate lunch together todayshe ate the whole sandwich!

Ok now they are saying that her friend is missing too. Her friend was going to have to move in with her other parent and didn’t want to, so they are thinking that the two girls ran off together. This would be way out of character for our patient but I’m crossing my fingers and toes that it’s what happened.

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One of our patients, a teenaged girl, went missing yesterday. Her parents went to pick her up from school and she was gone. She didn’t come home last night.

This girl is not a runaway. I don’t know what happened. We are completely horrified. If you pray, please send up some prayers for her.

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My last session was a young girl who asked me why everything in the world was so horrible. We talked for a while and she said “we need a lady president,” so I told her that she could be a lady president if she wanted to. She liked that. When I asked what her first order of business would be, she said “I’d go around and ask everybody what THEIR first order of business would be, so that I would know what the people want.” I was like “you’re gonna be a great president.”

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The sexual abuse case I just assessed is making me actually sick to my stomach. I can’t tell if I want to cry or vomit.

When a mother passes her children out as party favors, I give up on the world.

I just give up.

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Thoughts On A Conference Call

Thank god for mute buttons, so that I can play Candy Crush instead of paying attention.

And “just use your clinical judgment” is code for “that was a stupid question.”

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